Well, there honestly isnt much to say...
I'm recreating my blog for different reasons, one of them being i havent written in it since i was 13 and that was 2 years ago, things change, people change and all that crap. I was bored and something major in my family has happened that i can't talk about to anyone. I admit, i've told three friends and honestly, two i regret telling it to. Not being mean, but they can't help and speaking about it just made me feel guilty.
I'm almost fifteen now, October is only three months away, my birthday in exactly seventy days, not that i'm counting or anything XP...life is okayish, i'm getting on, not backing down and trying to live as well as i can. I've left issues in the past and focusing on the much awaited future. I'm focusing on my classes, as boring as it is, i'm in grade ten now and seriously have to focus, unfortunately. eight more weeks of this term left, and then i have one more and it's grade 11...gulp...
Anyway...i guess i was bored and wanted to start writing this again, though not that many people read it ;p My sister is almost four...very scary thought since she already acts so much like i did...i hope she doesnt make the same mistakes...mum and i have gone from arguing about little things to my bloody future...grrrrr....reality sucks!
Anyway, i'm still hanging out with my friends, the best and awesomest freaks i've ever met...hehehehe, you know it's true...and i'm happy to say that i've become slightly closer to two of them, but sadly drifted from the rest. It has more to do that i am changing, attitudes are changing and i can talk to these two more and i'm in none of their classes.
Anyway, that's all i've been doing for these two years that i havent written...i know, boring right? Well, it's flashed by in a blur and the future is stressing me out epically.
Time for my little anger rambling...and my twisted logic!
Why do they make fifteen, well fourteen really, year olds choose what they want to be for the rest of their life now? I get the whole fact that we only have two more years left and need them to learn the proper subjects, but how are we meant to know? and yes, i also get the fact that some people may have known since they were little kids what they want to do, or that we can change school subjects during the course of the next two years or even change university courses (if that's where your future takes you) but how are we meant to know? Some people won't have the money to change it in the future and may have to drop out, others may not know and be stuck in a job they hate...this is just my logic, but i don't get it! I think it's wrong to make us chose our life right now, it's like handing a little kid a gun, lining up four people that are identical, and telling them to shoot the bad guy. My logic of that, is that we are still kids, no matter how much i deny it, our logic is still that of a childs, we fight like bitches and judge on appearances. All of our lives start the same, growing up as kids, going to school...whether you have sucky grades or ace tests...but we all have different paths to take. The problem is, right now they all look identical, they are going to start the same but they will have different obstacles that we can't see, and they are telling us to chose out of these paths that to us...right now...are the same. How do they expect us to do it and think we have to stay on this path?
I'm stuck between choosing university's. Mum wants me to go to the one she works at...Griffith University...and while i admit it IS a good Uni, i'm not sure if it's the right one for me. It may be perfect, but i've grown up around them, and i've always felt like an outsider walking those grounds. It may be because i'm still young and i'm surrounded by older people, but it doesnt feel right to me and i follow my instincts. The problem is that mum won't let me go to the others, i thought maybe ACU (Australian Catholic University) because it seemed good. I've got the booklets and while the OP to get into it is high, it something i can push myself towards, something i want to do myself, but i'm not allowed. I want to be a Solicitor, working with Child abused victims as a prosecutor, that way i don't have to help the bad guy and only the kids...but how can i make it when i have someone choosing my path for me?
Well...anyway...instead of this poor me shit that i've got going i'm just going to say that i'm going to fight for my right, fight for the identical paths and go down the one i hope is right for me, and not based on others judgements. They may be wiser than me, and they may have been around me all the time and been throught more but they dont know me and my dreams and opinions as well as they think they do...because i'm not them.
Enough of my rambling...Bye!!
I'm recreating my blog for different reasons, one of them being i havent written in it since i was 13 and that was 2 years ago, things change, people change and all that crap. I was bored and something major in my family has happened that i can't talk about to anyone. I admit, i've told three friends and honestly, two i regret telling it to. Not being mean, but they can't help and speaking about it just made me feel guilty.
I'm almost fifteen now, October is only three months away, my birthday in exactly seventy days, not that i'm counting or anything XP...life is okayish, i'm getting on, not backing down and trying to live as well as i can. I've left issues in the past and focusing on the much awaited future. I'm focusing on my classes, as boring as it is, i'm in grade ten now and seriously have to focus, unfortunately. eight more weeks of this term left, and then i have one more and it's grade 11...gulp...
Anyway...i guess i was bored and wanted to start writing this again, though not that many people read it ;p My sister is almost four...very scary thought since she already acts so much like i did...i hope she doesnt make the same mistakes...mum and i have gone from arguing about little things to my bloody future...grrrrr....reality sucks!
Anyway, i'm still hanging out with my friends, the best and awesomest freaks i've ever met...hehehehe, you know it's true...and i'm happy to say that i've become slightly closer to two of them, but sadly drifted from the rest. It has more to do that i am changing, attitudes are changing and i can talk to these two more and i'm in none of their classes.
Anyway, that's all i've been doing for these two years that i havent written...i know, boring right? Well, it's flashed by in a blur and the future is stressing me out epically.
Time for my little anger rambling...and my twisted logic!
Why do they make fifteen, well fourteen really, year olds choose what they want to be for the rest of their life now? I get the whole fact that we only have two more years left and need them to learn the proper subjects, but how are we meant to know? and yes, i also get the fact that some people may have known since they were little kids what they want to do, or that we can change school subjects during the course of the next two years or even change university courses (if that's where your future takes you) but how are we meant to know? Some people won't have the money to change it in the future and may have to drop out, others may not know and be stuck in a job they hate...this is just my logic, but i don't get it! I think it's wrong to make us chose our life right now, it's like handing a little kid a gun, lining up four people that are identical, and telling them to shoot the bad guy. My logic of that, is that we are still kids, no matter how much i deny it, our logic is still that of a childs, we fight like bitches and judge on appearances. All of our lives start the same, growing up as kids, going to school...whether you have sucky grades or ace tests...but we all have different paths to take. The problem is, right now they all look identical, they are going to start the same but they will have different obstacles that we can't see, and they are telling us to chose out of these paths that to us...right now...are the same. How do they expect us to do it and think we have to stay on this path?
I'm stuck between choosing university's. Mum wants me to go to the one she works at...Griffith University...and while i admit it IS a good Uni, i'm not sure if it's the right one for me. It may be perfect, but i've grown up around them, and i've always felt like an outsider walking those grounds. It may be because i'm still young and i'm surrounded by older people, but it doesnt feel right to me and i follow my instincts. The problem is that mum won't let me go to the others, i thought maybe ACU (Australian Catholic University) because it seemed good. I've got the booklets and while the OP to get into it is high, it something i can push myself towards, something i want to do myself, but i'm not allowed. I want to be a Solicitor, working with Child abused victims as a prosecutor, that way i don't have to help the bad guy and only the kids...but how can i make it when i have someone choosing my path for me?
Well...anyway...instead of this poor me shit that i've got going i'm just going to say that i'm going to fight for my right, fight for the identical paths and go down the one i hope is right for me, and not based on others judgements. They may be wiser than me, and they may have been around me all the time and been throught more but they dont know me and my dreams and opinions as well as they think they do...because i'm not them.
Enough of my rambling...Bye!!
